http://www.chloeownsyou.blogspot.com 8))

yikes..i'm bored..i'm a lil addicted to anime now =pp my winning rate rose another 1% in GB ^^ and i realise something..super small rooms like room 35 arent good..it's either noobs or pros who come into the room..i'm just stuck in the middle =X bleahs..oh..i've just tried baking my OWN new recipe..hees.cheese tarts =D *drools* it's best eaten when it just came out pipping-hot from the oven! =)) mwahahs..i still have to modify the recipe though..there are still rooms for improvement =] some say too cheesy, some say too buttery [ops..i dont think there is such a word], some say too fattening XD improve improve improve!

i've learned beads-making too..hees. i think it's fun and interesting..but can be abit frustrating at times when the nylon string simply doesnt want to go through the beads..that would be the time to see the soon-to-erupt volcano..and yes, it erupted yesterday at 715 sharp =) a summary: i've done 4 rabbits in all, 2 small, 1 medium and 1 big one. 2 squirrel but not like squirrel and kangaroo but not like kangaroo animals, 1 big, 1 small. lol..like betting 4D.

I can close my eyes to the things I do not want to see, but I cannot close my heart to the things I do not want to feel.

13! man..i want a 10 so much..and i got a 10 for my L1R4 -.- totally sian sia..i think my results very unexpected..i cant believe physics was my best science subject..someone please slap me and wake me up..how can it be?? i'm just glad that all these studying are over..i can finally do something i like =DD hmm..i read straits time this morning and i saw shatec having this baking pastries diploma course..i am so tempted to go there! =/ somemore i can walk to shatec from my house[ i dont need to squeeze with darn lots of people on the bus..haha..i hate having to squeeze man] and i just realise something..next time when i open my company i wanna handmake pastries and stuffs since what i like is cooking and baking, and then to sell the food i cook/bake =D so..aiya..not sure where to go again..do i really want my business to be a big one(like breadtalk?) or just a small and only shop in singapore like loong fatt(famous for it's sweet and salty dau sa piah)? i actually prefer the latter..since then do i still need to study business? hai..headache..and i cant find shatec in that JAE booklet..bleahs..i dont even know their requirements, the school fees, studying hours ad so on XD later if i tell my parents about shatec they will sure blast me again..i keep changing my mind here and there..not only they cannot take it..i cannot take it too =X lol..discuss discuss..then shall see how. walau..if the conclusion goes back to studying jc again i will vomit blood..i know what i want to do in the future..i'm just unsure of what steps to take now.

dont tell me 13 is very good already or whatever shitt. i dont wish to hear that..i'm not greedy to want a 10..maybe i'm just stubborn..i want a 10. it's my fav. no. and it means alot to me..plus, it signifies something important to me in my heart..noone can understand it..and i dunno is i suay or what la..minus cca points and hmt i got 9..still cant get a 10..WTF. i'm happy with my results but disappointed for not getting my 10..i just feel heartbroken..hai..zhu ding de

hmm..feeling lost before the release of o's results..yesterday night i pondered if poly is the right choice for me..i have never taken business studies before..how do i know if it is suitable for me? but then even if i choose to go the jc route, i'll most probably take business studies in uni..so it's only a matter of time.

next, i'm someone who is san fen zhong re du =X i think. i'm scared that after a few business lectures i'm already sick of it..that's the worst thing that could ever happen..i wouldnt want to go jc anymore..the subjects which jcs offer turn me off..i've got nowhere to go if i dont like jc or poly..sigh. plus, i'm so afraid that i'll be alone in my course..i dont think anyone i know intends to take business studies..sad.

"industries are dominated not by the original innovators, but by fast followers - companies who come in later, pick up the idea and make it successful."

"companies great at innovating are not necessarily good at running a business in the long term."
"innovators may also be less ready to accept ideas from outside their own company, while followers are necessarily more open."

-quoted from james leibert, smart business

i've got some creative ideas in my mind for my future career already..but after reading the lines above, i'm quite disheartened..ideas get copied and redeveloped to get better..even if i introduce a new product, sooner or later it'll become common and there's nothing special about it anymore..opening a new company means i dont have a history of several decades like bengawan solo..they've got strong financial backups whereas i dont(i'll most probably be using my hard earn savings). so i cant afford to waste time and money..and i cant afford to be a follower too since i wont be having a strong operational advantage in such a short period of time..i've got to make a name for my company first..but it'll take quite some time and who knows if i will even survive for a month? plus, i'm quite stubborn =/ how ready will i be able to accept ideas from others? i wont even listen to my close ones if i had my mind set on something. HA. life is gonna be tough for me from now on. and, customers are creatures that are hard to satisfy..yes, be creative, be innovative..where is the incentive to improve if others get all the spoils from one's hardwork? tough tough tough. i'm a slow worker..i might not catch up with the fast-pace economy in the future..industries which already have their loyalty customers and supporters would definitely crush small, new company like mine in the future..hai..lost. should i continue to read this book? it can be quite demoralising at times..in fact, i learn more through this book than that mba guide..there are more that i wish to analyse..but it's gonna take forever to explain all out..sian.